You know ...
The memories rolled thru my head, as if being viewed on the silver screen. It all feels like it was just yesterday, you know. And as I watched, I smiled a small sad smile.
Those thoughts fill me with such emptiness. I’m nothing without him, you know. And I’m also everything to my family now; I have no choice.
These same memories also fill me with an overwhelming happiness. So many people travel this life journey without ever finding what we had. I was blessed, you know.
With the smiles come tears, with the joy comes sadness … it’s all a part of the path of loss. You know, it’s just a part of my journey now.
The pain never goes away, you know. It softens with time and blends more smoothly with everyday life, but it is always there; every moment of every day it’s there. You know that, don’t you?
And as I sat on the front porch last night, watching the twinkling of the fireflies against the night sky, I was overwhelmed by the beauty of life … and, well, you know … overwhelmed by the pain of his absence.
It’s all just, well, you know … no, that’s not right … no, you don’t know … you can’t know, until you travel this road … and … I hope that for you … knowing … is a long ways off.
Those thoughts fill me with such emptiness. I’m nothing without him, you know. And I’m also everything to my family now; I have no choice.
These same memories also fill me with an overwhelming happiness. So many people travel this life journey without ever finding what we had. I was blessed, you know.
With the smiles come tears, with the joy comes sadness … it’s all a part of the path of loss. You know, it’s just a part of my journey now.
The pain never goes away, you know. It softens with time and blends more smoothly with everyday life, but it is always there; every moment of every day it’s there. You know that, don’t you?
And as I sat on the front porch last night, watching the twinkling of the fireflies against the night sky, I was overwhelmed by the beauty of life … and, well, you know … overwhelmed by the pain of his absence.
It’s all just, well, you know … no, that’s not right … no, you don’t know … you can’t know, until you travel this road … and … I hope that for you … knowing … is a long ways off.
posted by kateandjona at
6:17 AM
3 Comments:
I don't know the full extent but I know the full extent of loss. I know the hurt never truly goes away. It fades but comes back with such a force that it feels like it was yesterday.
My thoughts and prayers are with you Kate.
Lots of love
Catherine xx
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PinkCat, at 8:40 AM
Like Britmum I think I can understand the nature of loss through my own losses, not all the same as yours. I know that the type of pain you have is there every moment of every day. You have so much more perspective than I do now, but it's not an expectation of mine, that it will ever go away.
Thinking of you.
(((hugs)))
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Rosepetal, at 9:38 AM
At the funeral of their 2 month old baby who didn't make it through heart surgery, my friends had the minister assure the congregation that, "There really is a place where joy and sorrow meet."
My God hold you in His hand through your journey.
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JP, at 3:24 PM
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